|Mare of Easttown|
|Created by||Brad Ingelsby|
|Written by||Brad Ingelsby|
|Directed by||Craig Zobel|
|Music by||Lele Marchitelli|
|Country of origin||United States|
|No. of episodes||7|
|Production locations||Delaware County, Chester County, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania|
|Running time||58–66 minutes|
|Original release||April 18 –|
May 30, 2021
Mare of Easttown is an American crime drama limited series created and written by Brad Ingelsby for HBO. Directed by Craig Zobel, the series premiered on April 18, 2021, and concluded on May 30, 2021, consisting of seven episodes. It stars Kate Winslet as the title character, a detective investigating a murder in a small town right outside Philadelphia. Julianne Nicholson, Jean Smart, Angourie Rice, Evan Peters, Sosie Bacon, David Denman, Neal Huff, James McArdle, Guy Pearce, Cailee Spaeny, John Douglas Thompson, and Joe Tippett appear in supporting roles.
Mare of Easttown was acclaimed by critics, who lauded its story, characters, acting, and representation of women. The series received 16 nominations at the 73rd Primetime Emmy Awards and won four, including Outstanding Lead Actress for Winslet, Outstanding Supporting Actor for Peters, and Outstanding Supporting Actress for Nicholson. The series was noted for its actors speaking in a mostly accurate Philadelphia accent, an accent rarely heard in popular media.
In a suburb of Philadelphia, police detective Marianne "Mare" Sheehan investigates the recent murder of a teenage mother while trying to keep her own life from falling apart. Mare is a local hero, having been the star of a high school basketball championship game 25 years earlier. She has also been unable to solve the case of another missing young girl for a year, leading many in the community to doubt her detective skills. Her personal troubles include a divorce, a son lost to suicide, and a custody battle with her son’s formerly heroin-addicted girlfriend over Mare's grandson.
|No.||Title||Directed by ||Written by ||Original air date ||U.S. viewers|
|1||"Miss Lady Hawk Herself"||Craig Zobel||Brad Ingelsby||April 18, 2021||0.600|
|In the small community of Easttown, Pennsylvania, Detective Mare Sheehan is ordered to reopen the year-old investigation into the disappearance of young Katie Bailey when the girl's mother, Dawn, complains on the news about the unsolved case. Adding to Mare's frustrations, her ex-husband Frank is remarrying and has invited Mare's whole family—including her mother Helen, teenage daughter Siobhan, and 4-year-old grandson Drew—to his engagement party on the same night Mare and her high school basketball teammates are being honored on the 25th anniversary of their state championship win. At a bar, Mare meets Richard, an author who has recently moved to the area, and they end up having sex. Meanwhile, Erin McMenamin, a teenage single mother who lives with her drunken, abusive father Kenny, argues with her baby's father, Dylan, and his new girlfriend Brianna when they come to get the baby for a weekend visit. Erin is later lured into the woods and beaten by Brianna in front of Dylan and other teenagers. Siobhan sees the fight and rescues Erin, who walks away into the woods alone. The next morning, Erin's dead body, nearly naked and with a large head wound, is found in a local creek.|
|2||"Fathers"||Craig Zobel||Brad Ingelsby||April 25, 2021||0.735|
|Mare responds to the call about Erin's body and notifies Kenny, who immediately blames Dylan. Against Mare's wishes, county detective Colin Zabel, known for recently solving a nearby cold case, is brought in to help investigate both Erin's murder and Katie Bailey's disappearance. Under interrogation, Dylan denies killing Erin, but omits important details of their last encounters. Cell phone video of Brianna's attack on Erin surfaces; Mare publicly arrests Brianna for assault at her family's restaurant. Brianna's upset father Tony begins stalking Mare. Mare and Frank worry that Drew might have inherited the mental illness that caused his father, their son Kevin, to take his own life two years previously. Drew's mother Carrie, a recovering addict, seeks full custody of Drew. Mare accepts Richard's invitation to meet him at a reception in his honor, but their date goes poorly. Erin's best friend Jess tells Mare's friend Lori Ross that Erin confided in her that Dylan is not the real father of her baby; Jess thinks Frank, who briefly taught Erin in school, is the real father. A grieving Kenny abducts and shoots Dylan, leaving him for dead.|
|3||"Enter Number Two"||Craig Zobel||Brad Ingelsby||May 2, 2021||0.918|
|Kenny confesses to shooting Dylan, who has survived. Frank admits he helped Erin by buying her baby items, but denies any sexual relations or involvement in her murder. Mare gathers DNA samples from Frank and Dylan for paternity testing. The medical examiner reports that Erin's finger is missing from a gunshot and that there is no evidence of rape. The finger is later found in a local park, and Mare then finds a bullet, indicating that Erin was killed there and her body subsequently moved. Erin's phone records reveal that her last call was made after the fight with Brianna to Deacon Mark Burton, who claims that he only provided her with counsel. Mare is romantically pursued by Richard and also propositioned by a drunken Zabel, both of whom share stories of their own difficult divorces and family dysfunction. Unbeknownst to the police, Deacon Mark has Erin's bicycle, which he secretly throws into the river. Desperate to prevent Carrie from gaining custody of Drew, Mare plants heroin from the evidence room in Carrie's car; Chief Carter immediately discovers the truth and puts Mare on administrative leave, ordering her to get grief counseling.|
|4||"Poor Sisyphus"||Craig Zobel||Brad Ingelsby||May 9, 2021||1.049|
|Zabel becomes lead investigator on the case when Mare becomes suspended; however, she continues to investigate on her own. Paternity tests show that neither Frank nor Dylan fathered Erin's baby. Another girl, Missy Sager, goes missing. While searching Erin's dresser for clues, Mare finds a heart-shaped necklace engraved with a date. Zabel learns that Deacon Mark was transferred from his previous parish after allegations of inappropriate behavior with an underaged girl. Carrie gets Drew for the night, but begrudgingly returns him to Mare when he becomes homesick. Mare remembers Kevin and Carrie violently abusing her and robbing her for drug money. Siobhan struggles with her own feelings about Kevin and her family. She ends her relationship with Becca and begins a new relationship with Anne, who she met through a gig her band did. Richard and Zabel both ask Mare for a date on the same night. Dawn Bailey receives a call claiming that her daughter Katie is alive and demanding $5,000 for her return. When she goes to meet the caller, she finds out the culprit was Freddie Hanlon. Missy Sager is imprisoned in a soundproof room in the attic of a tavern, and finds Katie Bailey alive and being held captive there.|
|5||"Illusions"||Craig Zobel||Brad Ingelsby||May 16, 2021||1.064|
|Mare learns that Erin stayed with Billy Ross, her father's cousin, for a couple of months following the death of her mother. Brianna grows suspicious of Dylan, who was absent from their bed for some time on the night of Erin's death. Dylan and his friend meet with Jess to burn Erin's hidden journals, but Jess secretly keeps a photograph from one of them. Mare goes on a date with Zabel, but it sours when she continuously brings up the case. Later, Mare and Zabel interview a girl who narrowly escaped kidnapping by a man in a blue van. Zabel admits to Mare that he did not really solve the case that made his career, but instead relied on files obtained from a private investigator. Using a partial license plate number provided by the girl, Mare and Zabel track down the kidnapper, Wayne Potts. Katie and Missy bang on a pipe to alert Mare and Zabel to their presence in Potts' attic, causing Potts to shoot Zabel in the head and wound Mare in the arm. An unarmed Mare flees through the house, eventually retrieving Zabel's gun and killing Potts as backup arrives.|
|6||"Sore Must Be the Storm"||Craig Zobel||Brad Ingelsby||May 23, 2021||1.210|
|Katie and Missy return home, but Potts had an alibi the night of Erin's murder. With Zabel dead, Chief Carter lifts Mare's suspension and puts her back in charge of Erin's murder investigation. Brianna tells Mare about Dylan's unexplained absence the night of the murder, and Dylan invokes his right to a lawyer. Mare learns that Erin attended a Ross family reunion at a lake, on the date engraved on her heart-shaped pendant, and that Erin and her father, Kenny, stayed in the same cabin as Billy. Pop Ross tells his son John that Billy came home covered in blood the night of Erin's murder. John talks to Billy, who tearfully states that he killed Erin. John tells his wife Lori, adding that Billy and Erin had an incestuous relationship that began at the reunion and that Billy fathered Erin's child. John and Billy go on a last fishing trip together; their tackle box contains a gun. Despite John telling Lori to keep it a secret, Lori tells Mare about Billy. Mare calls Chief Carter to let him know she is driving to the fishing spot to arrest Billy for Erin's murder. Jess comes to the police station with her mother to give Chief Carter the photograph she took from Erin's journal. Upon viewing the photo, Chief Carter orders his men to get Mare on the phone.|
|7||"Sacrament"||Craig Zobel||Brad Ingelsby||May 30, 2021||1.520|
|The photo shows Erin in bed next to a sleeping John. Jess tells Chief Carter that she and Dylan burned the journals to hide any compromising information and to keep Erin's baby in the care of Dylan's parents. At the fishing spot, John points the gun at Billy intending to kill him and let him take the fall for Erin's murder, but Mare arrives just in time to subdue John. John confesses that he himself had the relationship with Erin and fathered her child, and that Erin called him away from Frank's engagement party to meet her at the park, where she threatened to shoot herself. John says he accidentally shot her while struggling for the gun, and that he and Billy moved her body to the woods to draw suspicion towards the other kids who were there that night. John admits he convinced Lori to lie and tell Mare that Billy killed Erin. John asks Lori to raise his and Erin's son. John and Billy go to jail, but Billy is let out on bail and Deacon Mark is released. Carrie, who is using drugs again, returns to rehab and drops her custody case, allowing Drew to remain with Mare. Glen Carroll tells Mare that his vintage handgun of the type identified as firing the fatal bullet recently disappeared from his shed, and was returned with two rounds missing. The only other person with access to the shed was John and Lori's 13-year-old son Ryan. Ryan confesses that he, not John, met Erin at the park, planning to use Glen's gun to scare her into staying away from his family. Ryan killed her after his attempted intimidation became a physical struggle, and his father John and uncle Billy covered it up to protect him. Ryan is sent to juvenile detention, causing Lori to angrily rebuff Mare. Later, Lori and Mare reconcile, and Mare finally brings herself to revisit the attic where Kevin died.|
In January 2019, it was reported that Brad Ingelsby, creator of the limited series, would write all episodes, with Gavin O'Connor directing. Executive producers include Ingelsby, O'Connor, Kate Winslet, Paul Lee, Mark Roybal, and Gordon Gray. In January 2020, it was announced that Craig Zobel would replace O'Connor as director due to scheduling issues and also serve as executive producer.
Regarding the setting, Ingelsby stated "sort of an amalgam" which he explained "It’s Coatesville, it’s Aston, it’s Drexel Hill." Ingelsby stated that he chose the name Easttown because "it sounded like such a generic town name."
It was announced in January 2019 that Kate Winslet had been cast to star in the HBO miniseries that would be filmed on location in suburban Philadelphia. In September 2019, the cast was rounded out with Julianne Nicholson, Jean Smart, Angourie Rice, Evan Peters, Cailee Spaeny and David Denman. John Douglas Thompson, Patrick Murney, Ben Miles, Katie Kreisler, James McArdle, Sosie Bacon, Joe Tippett, Neal Huff were cast in October 2019. In February 2021, it was announced that Guy Pearce joined the cast, replacing Miles in his role. In the same month, Mackenzie Lansing, Kate Arrington, Ruby Cruz, James Easter Bradford, Elisa Davis, Enid Graham, Justin Hurtt-Dunkley, Izzy King, Jack Mulhern, Anthony Norman, Drew Scheid, and Madeline Weinstein were cast in the limited series.
Filming of the show began in the fall of 2019 around suburban Philadelphia and was reported to still be in progress as of March 2020, with plans to continue through April. However, production was shut down early due to the COVID-19 pandemic. In early September 2020, a Philadelphia news station reported that filming was set to resume within the month.
Because the story is set in a fictionalized version of Easttown Township in Chester County, Pennsylvania, where series creator Brad Ingelsby was born (the show moves the location east to Delaware County, which is adjacent to Easttown Twp), there were discussions about whether to use the "Delco accent", a version of Philadelphia English common in Delaware County. It was Winslet who insisted that the accent be used, despite being a particularly difficult accent to learn, because she felt the community itself was an important character in the story, and the authentic accent would help emphasize that. "There were a lot of things I could have really leant into that would have made it sound like I was doing something a bit gimmicky and I didn't want that to happen," Winslet said. "So I just had to drill it and drill it and drill it." She claimed that learning the accent was so difficult that it caused her to "throw things". A dialect coach named Susanne Sulby assisted the actors.
Filming locations include a train station and high-school gymnasium in Coatesville, Pennsylvania (a city in Chester County), and an American Legion hall in Ogden, a community in Delaware County. Inglesby has said that many of the filming locations were around Aston Township, in Delaware County. Winslet reportedly said that, while filming the show, she became obsessed with Wawa convenience stores. "Wawa was a big part of my life for well over a year," she said. Wawa stores were used as scouting locations for the production's costume designers.
The seven-episode limited series premiered on April 18, 2021, and concluded on May 30, 2021. The limited series was released on Blu-ray and DVD by Warner Bros. Home Entertainment on September 14, 2021.
Mare of Easttown received critical acclaim. On review aggregator Rotten Tomatoes, the series has an approval rating of 95% based on 128 reviews, with an average rating of 8.1/10. The website's critics consensus reads, "Grounded by a career-best Kate Winslet, Mare of Easttown's ambitions at times exceed its reach, but its central mystery is supported by such strong sense of place and character it hardly matters." On Metacritic, the series has a weighted average score of 81 out of 100 based on reviews from 42 critics, indicating "universal acclaim".
Winslet received widespread praise for her performance, including from Lucy Mangan of The Guardian who wrote, "If you can have a defining performance this late in a career, this is surely Winslet's. She is absolutely wonderful." Alex Abad-Santos of Vox described Winslet's performance as "mesmerizing", adding that "she allows us to see the ugliness Mare is capable of and how obsessive, perhaps even abusive, she can be when she's threatened." The Wall Street Journal's Dorothy Rabinowitz noted "Winslet's eloquent command of the role is obvious from the outset". Ben Travers of IndieWire wrote, "Winslet's immersed performance could carry a far lesser work by itself", while adding that her East American dialect is "convincing and her physical work is flawless." Richard Roeper of the Chicago Sun-Times declared, "Winslet adds to a long list of magnificent, disappear-into-the-character performances...one of the most resonant performances of her career." Caryn James of the BBC wrote, "Winslet makes an unglamorous return to TV...and her fierce, ordinary heroine is gloriously real."
Inkoo Kang of The Hollywood Reporter gave it a mostly positive review describing it as "uneven, but masterfully suspenseful". Kang compared the series with British crime drama Happy Valley, a comparison echoed by Fiona Sturges of The Independent, who wrote that "addiction, abuse and death were woven into the fabric of life" in both dramas, while acknowledging similarities between both shows' protagonists. The New York Times was dismissive in its review, with television critic Mike Hale writing: "Some style in the direction or honest feeling in the screenplay could have mitigated the dreariness, but 'Mare' doesn't offer much beyond Ben Richardson's burnished cinematography." A plot twist in the final episode received lukewarm reviews from various outlets. For The A.V. Club, Joshua Alston wrote, "While [the final episode] is a triumphant conclusion to Mare's emotional arc, as a conclusion to a mystery, it's a mixed bag [...] the whole thing just feels arbitrary and confusing and lacks the emotional logic this show is normally so good at." In Decider, Sean T. Collins agreed but praised the leads' performances, writing, "The resolution of the mystery is a bit 'twists and fake-outs for twists' and fake-outs' sake.' But each new revelation came with an emotionally devastating payload for the characters, with Winslet and Nicholson in particular doing their best work of the series."
Critics and viewers have also particularly praised the series and Winslet for convincingly replicating the Philadelphia regional accent, an oddity in mainstream media. The specific version of the Philadelphia accent is known as the "Delco accent", after Delaware County to the west of Philadelphia. The characters' accents, along with their fondness for Wawa, were parodied in a May 2021 Saturday Night Live sketch.
Mare of Easttown proved to be a record breaking ratings hit. The massive viewership resulted in HBO Max servers crashing shortly after the finale was released on the streaming service.
The final episode of Mare of Easttown drew four million viewers over the holiday weekend across HBO and HBO Max, with nearly three million viewers Sunday night (all platforms), marking a series high for both linear and digital, according to HBO. The finale also set the record as the most watched episode of an original series on HBO Max during its first 24 hours of availability, besting the finales of The Undoing and The Flight Attendant over the same period of time. Mare of Easttown also joined The Undoing as the only series in HBO's history to see consecutive growth week-to-week.
|1||"Miss Lady Hawk Herself"||April 18, 2021||0.08||0.600||0.06||0.575||0.14||1.175|
|2||"Fathers"||April 25, 2021||0.10||0.735||0.07||0.703||0.17||1.438|
|3||"Enter Number Two"||May 2, 2021||0.12||0.918||0.08||0.773||0.20||1.691|
|4||"Poor Sisyphus"||May 9, 2021||0.16||1.049||0.10||0.869||0.26||1.918|
|5||"Illusions"||May 16, 2021||0.15||1.064||0.09||0.922||0.24||1.986|
|6||"Sore Must Be the Storm"||May 23, 2021||0.22||1.210||—||—||—||—|
|7||"Sacrament"||May 30, 2021||0.27||1.520||0.08||0.696||0.35||2.215|
|Gold Derby Awards||TV Miniseries of the Year||Mare of Easttown||Nominated|||
|TV Film or Miniseries Lead Actress of the Year||Kate Winslet||Won|
|TV Film or Miniseries Supporting Actor of the Year||Evan Peters||Won|
|TV Film or Miniseries Supporting Actress of the Year||Julianne Nicholson||Nominated|
|TV Cast of the Year||The Ensemble of Mare of Easttown||Nominated|
|Hollywood Critics Association TV Awards||Best Broadcast Network or Cable Limited Series, Anthology Series or Live-Action Television Movie||Mare of Easttown||Won|| |
|Best Actress in a Limited Series, Anthology Series or Television Movie||Kate Winslet||Nominated|
|Best Supporting Actor in a Limited Series, Anthology Series or Television Movie||Evan Peters||Won|
|Best Supporting Actress in a Limited Series, Anthology Series or Television Movie||Julianne Nicholson||Nominated|
|Primetime Emmy Awards||Outstanding Limited or Anthology Series||Paul Lee, Mark Roybal, Craig Zobel, Kate Winslet, Brad Ingelsby, Gavin O'Connor, Gordon Gray, Ron Schmidt, and Karen Wacker||Nominated|| |
|Outstanding Lead Actress in a Limited or Anthology Series or Movie||Kate Winslet||Won|
|Outstanding Supporting Actor in a Limited or Anthology Series or Movie||Evan Peters (for "Enter Number Two")||Won|
|Outstanding Supporting Actress in a Limited or Anthology Series or Movie||Julianne Nicholson (for "Sacrament")||Won|
|Jean Smart (for "Sacrament")||Nominated|
|Outstanding Directing for a Limited or Anthology Series or Movie||Craig Zobel||Nominated|
|Outstanding Writing for a Limited or Anthology Series or Movie||Brad Ingelsby||Nominated|
|Primetime Creative Arts Emmy Awards||Outstanding Casting for a Limited or Anthology Series or Movie||Avy Kaufman, Diane Heery, and Jason Loftus||Nominated|
|Outstanding Cinematography for a Limited or Anthology Series or Movie||Ben Richardson (for "Illusions")||Nominated|
|Outstanding Contemporary Costumes||Meghan Kasperlik, Francisco Stoll, Taylor Smith, Laura Downing, and Jennifer Hryniw (for "Miss Lady Hawk Herself")||Nominated|
|Outstanding Contemporary Hairstyling||Shunika Terry, Lawrence Davis, Lydia Benaim, and Ivana Primorac (for "Sore Must Be the Storm")||Nominated|
|Outstanding Contemporary Makeup (Non-Prosthetic)||Debi Young, Sandra Linn, Ngozi Olandu Young, and Rachel Geary (for "Sore Must Be the Storm")||Nominated|
|Outstanding Single-Camera Picture Editing for a Limited or Anthology Series or Movie||Amy E. Duddleston and Naomi Sunrise Filoramo (for "Fathers")||Nominated|
|Amy E. Duddleston (for "Miss Lady Hawk Herself")||Nominated|
|Outstanding Production Design for a Narrative Contemporary Program (One Hour or More)||Keith P. Cunningham, James F. Truesdale, and Edward McLoughlin||Won|
|Outstanding Sound Mixing for a Limited or Anthology Series or Movie||Joe DeAngelis, Chris Carpenter, and Richard Bullock (for "Sore Must Be the Storm")||Nominated|
|Television Critics Association Awards||Program of the Year||Mare of Easttown||Nominated|||
|Outstanding Achievement in Movies, Miniseries and Specials||Won|
|Outstanding New Program||Nominated|
|Individual Achievement in Drama||Kate Winslet||Nominated|
|Australian Academy of Cinema and Television Arts Awards||Best International Drama Show – Television||Mare of Easttown||Nominated|||
|Best International Lead Actress in a Show – Television||Kate Winslet||Won|
|American Cinema Editors Awards||Best Edited Limited Series||Amy E. Duddleston and Naomi Sunrise Filoramo (for "Fathers")||Nominated|||
|Amy E. Duddleston (for "Illusions")||Won|
|American Society of Cinematographers Awards||Outstanding Achievement in Cinematography in Motion Picture, Limited Series, or Pilot Made for Television||Ben Richardson (for "Illusions")||Nominated|||
|Art Directors Guild Awards||Excellence in Production Design for a Television Movie or Limited Series||Keith P. Cunningham||Nominated|||
|British Academy Television Awards||Best International Programme||Mare of Easttown||Nominated|||
|Best Actress||Kate Winslet||Nominated|
|Cinema Audio Society Awards||Outstanding Achievement in Sound Mixing for a Non-Theatrical Motion Pictures or Limited Series||Richard Bullock, Joseph DeAngelis, and Chris Carpenter (for "Sore Must Be the Storm")||Won|||
|Costume Designers Guild Awards||Excellence in Contemporary Television||Meghan Kasperlik (for "Miss Ladyhawk Herself")||Nominated|||
|Critics' Choice Awards||Best Television Miniseries||Mare of Easttown||Won|||
|Best Television Movie or Miniseries Actress||Kate Winslet||Won|
|Best Television Movie or Miniseries Supporting Actor||Evan Peters||Nominated|
|Best Television Movie or Miniseries Supporting Actress||Julianne Nicholson||Nominated|
|Directors Guild of America Awards||Outstanding Directorial Achievement in Miniseries or TV Film||Craig Zobel||Nominated|||
|Golden Globe Awards||Best Miniseries or Motion Picture – Television||Mare of Easttown||Nominated|||
|Best Actress in a Miniseries or Motion Picture – Television||Kate Winslet||Won|
|Golden Reel Awards||Outstanding Achievement in Sound Editing – Limited Series or Anthology||Bradley North, Tiffany S. Griffith, Jordan Wilby, Antony Zeller, Zane Bruce, and Stephanie Lowry (for "Illusions")||Nominated|||
|Make-Up Artists and Hair Stylists Guild Awards||Best Contemporary Makeup in a Television Series, Limited or Miniseries or Television New Media Series||Debi Young, Ngozi Olandu Young, Sandra Linn, and Rachel Geary||Nominated|||
|Best Contemporary Hair Styling in a Television Series, Limited or Miniseries or Television New Media Series||Lawrence Davis, Shunika Terry, Lydia Benaim, and Ivana Primorac||Nominated|
|Producers Guild of America Awards||Outstanding Producer of Limited or Anthology Television Series||Mare of Easttown||Won|||
|Satellite Awards||Best Miniseries||Mare of Easttown||Won|||
|Best Actress in a Miniseries or Television Film||Kate Winslet||Won|
|Best Supporting Actor in a Series, Miniseries, or Television Film||Evan Peters||Won|
|Best Supporting Actress in a Series, Miniseries, or Television Film||Julianne Nicholson||Nominated|
|Screen Actors Guild Awards||Outstanding Performance by a Male Actor in a Motion Picture Made for Television or Miniseries||Evan Peters||Nominated|||
|Outstanding Performance by a Female Actor in a Motion Picture Made for Television or Miniseries||Jean Smart||Nominated|
|Outstanding Performance by Stunt Actors in Television||Mare of Easttown||Nominated|
|Writers Guild of America Awards||Outstanding Writing – TV Original Long Form||Brad Ingelsby||Won|||
Though the program was intended as a limited series, Winslet stated in August 2021 that she "would love to return" as Mare, and that for a potential second season, Ingelsby "has shared some very cool ideas. We will see what happens. I also have to figure out if I can do it. Can I go through it again? It did cost me a lot emotionally to be her, and I have to figure out if I can summon it all up again and do it again."